Sexual Trauma Can Hijack Your Enjoyment in The Lifestyle

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Participating in The Lifestyle can be as easy and natural as any other hobby or past-time for most people. That said, there are many other wonderful people who get tripped up when they try to join in on all the fun. Why? Sexual Trauma!

For most, playing in The Lifestyle can be as easy and natural as any other hobby or past-time. On the flip side, others get tripped up or triggered when they try to join in on all the fun. Examples of this can include extreme jealousy, quick mood changes, and what many consider “Drama” during playdates or sex-positive events.

Why? Sexual Trauma!

I know that there may be other reasons, but based on my professional experience, sex trauma is at the root of the cause more often than not. I have worked with hundreds of Lifestyle couples over the years, and this is something I see consistently in those individuals who struggle to enjoy themselves freely. 

Sexual trauma is complex trauma and can occur from major life experiences like sexual assault or child sex abuse, or seemingly minor experiences like growing up in a strict religious home or punitive punishment (Shaming) related to being caught masturbating as a kid. Victims are often left to deal with the impact of the event that occurred as well as the symptoms they now have long after the original event or experience. These kinds of experiences can cause a cycle of emotional and psychological distress, often unconscious and chronic, and can undermine every aspect of your life — sexual and non-sexual. This includes your ability to show up in The Lifestyle and enjoy all it has to offer.

In this article, my goal is to shed light on this important topic in the Lifestyle community and detail a few common examples of what this looks and sounds like in my Sex Coaching practice. I’ll show you how sexual trauma gets in the way of enjoying the sexy Lifestyle, why this trauma MUST be processed to feel sexually free, and then provide you with the three-part framework I use with clients to help you process your experience(s).

You Are Not Alone

Studies suggest that every woman you know has either been assaulted, narrowly avoided assault, had to calculate the possibility of being assaulted or has held the hand of another woman who was assaulted. Sexual trauma does not only impact women. Male sexual assault is very real and grossly underreported. Every 68 seconds, an American is sexually assaulted. And every 9 minutes, that victim is a child per RAINN (Rape, Abuse, & Incest National Network), the nation’s largest anti-sexual violence organization.


I am a sexual assault survivor myself and have been professionally processing clients’ trauma since 2016. The way I address sexual assault with my clients is unique and highly effective, so I thought it was time for me to share this framework with a broader audience.

Why is it So Important to Process Your Sexual Trauma if You Want to Enjoy The Lifestyle?

Bob and Mary (not their real names) recently contacted me wanting my help navigating jealousy issues and their rocky entry into The Lifestyle.  Both chose to enter the world of Swinging for all the right reasons — they had built a wonderful life together, had a solid, loving relationship, and were looking for a way to recapture the great sex life they had before raising kids and professional careers got the best of them. 

They did their research and took my Sex Positive Event Essentials class before attending their first sex party. Mary thought she was ready, and they met a sexy couple at the party, but when it came time to play, Mary “freaked out and it was totally awkward for everyone.” She froze, got jealous, started to panic, and then the tears and embarrassment set in. It was all she could do to collect herself and get to the car with her partner. Unfortunately, she’d done this multiple times and was starting to lose all confidence in herself as a woman and partner and began to write off any connection to The Lifestyle.

People need to make choices that keep themselves and their relationships healthy. There is nothing wrong with Mary thinking that The Lifestyle might not be for her, but there is a lot lost if she makes that choice from a place of shame or unresolved sexual trauma. Such was the case for Mary when she came to see me.

More Common Than You Think

It happens more often than you might think in The Lifestyle. Bob and Mary thought they just needed help working on how to handle jealousy. When I reviewed Mary’s intake form, she had sexual trauma from childhood as well as instances through her early 20s. In discussing this, Mary felt like she had already gotten over those events long ago and did not think twice about them when entering The Lifestyle.

When you start experimenting and exploring new sexual behaviors and relationship styles, it is very common for old traumas from the past to flare up again. Consensual Non-Monogamy (CNM), Swinging, Polyamory, or any “non-traditional” open relationship style can have a profound way of stirring up what has not been fully processed.

It was clear to me that Mary needed to spend time fully processing her sexual trauma from years ago if she wanted more fun and less drama the next time she attended a Sex-Positive Lifestyle event. The good news is you can process sexual trauma regardless of whether it happened recently or years ago. That said, until you do so, owning your sexuality, feeling free, trying new things like Swinging, or engaging in The Lifestyle (even with a trusted partner) will continue to seem out of reach for you.

My Lifestyle Clients always want to work on the fun stuff, but really owning and creating your sexual confidence requires that past traumas be resolved so you CAN feel confident in your own body and with your behavior(s).” – Dr. Oneal 

How to Process Sexual Trauma

The moment you were sexually traumatized, you began creating three “buckets of pain.”

  1. What your BODY experienced.
  2. What you SAID to yourself about what happened.
  3. What BELIEFS you have created since the sexual assault.  

Sexual Trauma Can Hijack Your Enjoyment in The Lifestyle

It stands to reason that if harm was done in those three categories, then methodical processing in these same three categories, “Buckets of Pain,” must be done for complete healing to occur. “Complete healing” is a personal definition and journey, but at a minimum, it is your ability to trust yourself and the world again.

Now being aware of the Three Buckets of Pain and how they affect your mental and emotional wellbeing, it is imperative that you take the time to process. This looks like acknowledging each Bucket of Pain, giving each what it needs for resolution. 

Not sure what that looks like? Let me walk you through it.

What Your BODY Experienced

Organs, tissues, skin, muscle, and endocrine glands all have peptide receptors on them and can access and store emotional information. This means the emotional memory is stored in many places in the body, not just or even primarily, in the brain.” – Psychology Today

Emotional pain gets stored in the body, which must be released for optimal health. Several modalities can be used to release emotions trapped in the body, but the one I have found to be most accessible and effective is the Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT or “Tapping”). 

Sexual Trauma Can Hijack Your Enjoyment in The Lifestyle

Processing your sexual trauma through EFT will include…

  • Recalling every detail of the event while processing it with an EFT practitioner.  
  • Feeling your feelings. It is quite common for a victim to have conflicting feelings about the event. You must acknowledge, feel, and process all of your feelings and thoughts, whether or not you understand or approve of them. Releasing trapped emotions through EFT is like lancing the pus from an infected wound — it’s a pain worth the effort. Without it, healing cannot take place.
  • Telling your story to an EFT practitioner who understands trauma, sexual assault, and recovery can make all the difference in your progress.  These things are not easy — having someone who understands what you have been through can be instrumental in helping you get through a process like this. I understand — you don’t want to go back to the difficult event(s), thoughts, and emotions. But by going back in this way, you release the emotional and mental pain you are feeling, ultimately freeing you from them.
  • Want to learn more about the Emotional Freedom Technique? Check out my other SDC EFT Article.

What You SAID to Yourself About What Happened

After the event, you tried to make sense of what happened to you. Start by acknowledging what stories you are currently consciously telling yourself— from here, you will be able to start untangling and re-writing them. Note: you are likely to have created unconscious stories as well. This is where working with someone who specializes in sexual trauma can be especially beneficial.

Stories you’ve told yourself might sound like…

  • He/She didn’t know _____________.
  • I deserved it because ____________.
  • I’ll be okay; this isn’t that big of a deal.
  • This isn’t rape because I’m not beaten up.
  • I should be okay with this — it could have been a lot worse.

The stories we tell ourselves are powerful. Our mind does not know the difference between a thought and reality, so we must be mindful of what narratives we tell ourselves. Acknowledging, processing, and ultimately re-writing the stories you tell yourself will be a critical piece in your journey to healing.

The above examples are common for victims to say easily. When I work with a client who has been assaulted, part of the method of this step is to process the pain and come to the following narratives, which are also true. This part can be extremely painful, hard to come to, and nearly impossible without the help of a practitioner guiding the way through your labyrinth of pain.

Sexual Trauma Can Hijack Your Enjoyment in The Lifestyle

NEW Narratives You Tell Yourself Might Sound Like…

  • I froze. I was scared.
  • I was just a kid!
  • It was not my fault.
  • I just went along so I would not be hurt worse.
  • I did not know it was going to happen like that.
  • I just wanted to be liked/loved.
  • I did not deserve that.
  • I have a right to my body.
  • No one deserves to be hurt.
  • I deserve to be heard and respected.

When ALL of the experience has been acknowledged, given a voice, and had its moment to be heard and witnessed, the electrical charge those feelings carry gets discharged, and your neural system can finally downregulate. With this, you reach a place where you can move forward in life with acceptance of the events that have occurred. You cannot change the events, but they finally no longer run you or what you believe about yourself.

Processing this Bucket of Pain is complex work and cannot be overlooked.

What BELIEFS You Have Created Since the Sexual Assault

In this bucket, you are trying to create physical and emotional safety for yourself moving forward. After the event, you naturally start creating conscious and unconscious beliefs about who you are and what is possible for you. In an attempt to make yourself feel whole and safe, you may find yourself creating new rules for yourself.

UNCONSCIOUS rules you’ve created might look like…

  • Don’t ___________.
  • I can’t ___________.
  • It’s not safe to ___________.
  • Some sort of self-blame, playing small, or other limitations to be safe.

Sexual Trauma Can Hijack Your Enjoyment in The Lifestyle

It is healthy to self-reflect and learn from life experiences. You certainly don’t want another similar ordeal, nor do you want to live in fear or experience negative triggers related to the incident. Becoming aware of these new beliefs and processing this Bucket of Pain will be foundational to your self-confidence as a person in the world again — including in a Lifestyle event setting.

New, EMPOWERED Rules Might Sound Like…

  • I can trust myself.
  • I can trust others.
  • I deserve to be respected and valued.
  • I don’t put myself in situations that are not safe for me.
  • I listen to my inner sense and take measures for my safety.
  • Saying No or not doing something can be an act of self-respect.

This is where survivors can reclaim their sense of self — able to consciously make their own rules about what is possible for them, able to regain a sense of safety, and, ultimately, choose the life they want for themselves.

Don’t Let Your Trauma Hold You Back

Whether you have experienced one traumatic event or a lot of them, I want you to know that what happened to you was not your fault. If you find that joining The Lifestyle intellectually makes a lot of sense but emotionally you find it hard to have as much fun as others, I encourage you to explore processing your past sexual trauma.

Take your life back by finding your way, your voice, and your power again. It IS possible to cultivate a thriving life (personal and sexual) after experiencing sexual trauma. It is possible to attend Swinger parties and not get triggered when it comes time to play. I often say “When one of us wins over the darkness… WE ALL win!” Take the time and make the effort to unwind the unfortunate events that have occurred in your past so that you can live in the present.

Take your life back by finding your way, your voice, and your power again. It IS possible!

Resources to Help You Process Sexual Trauma

Free Trifold Handout

If you found this framework to be helpful, I have compiled its core elements into a printable Tri-Fold. Message me via SDC or send an email requesting it, and I’ll be sure to get you a copy. Whenever I teach a class, I leave a stack of these at the back of the room for people to take as needed. Please accept the Trifold Handout as a gift to support your healing. Print it out as a reminder for yourself throughout your journey of personal growth.

National Resources

You are not alone. Processing sexual trauma or assault with a professional will greatly improve your recovery and save you a lot of time suffering.  Google resources in your area. Here is a list of national resources. People are standing by and WANT to help you.

  • National Sexual Assault Hotline: 800-656-4673
  • Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 800-273-8255

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“As a rape and child sex abuse survivor, it seems crazy that I would even be open to playing in the Lifestyle. After working with Dr. Oneal I have tools, I know I have the right to my voice and my choice, and I know how to handle my flashbacks. I don’t get them very often anymore, but when I do, I now have the skills to process myself in the moment (yes, even while my body parts are engaged) and find the emotional safety I need. Her processing my traumatic past the way she does has opened my entire world to SO MUCH more!
– Female business owner in her 50s with 10 successful years in the LS

I coach people exploring or active in The Lifestyle. Sexual trauma, jealousy, relationship agreements, and good old-fashioned street-smart Lifestyle savvy are often the most popular topics. With my personal and professional experience around these topics, my credentials in EFT, and a Ph.D. in Human Sexuality, I am well-equipped to help you process sexual trauma and navigate Lifestyle challenges so you can have more fun and less drama.

You can recover. You are not “too broken,” and you are a person of great value. 

All my best to you and your unique journey!

Dr. Cari Oneal

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